Alina

🐰When it Comes to being a Life Coach, being someone who identifies as a spiritual person. Being someone who is into Exercising, & yoga, & meditation, & writing, & dancing, & science, & art. Being a certified trauma specialist through a internationally accredited organization, Being someone who has a little experience in the military aswell as everything else that your into & being the spirit that you are. What are some benefits of having you as my Black Swan life coach Darail…?

Chapter 1

**Dancing Dragon-fly's**

Darail

👽That's a good question…It honestly depends on the intention of my clients. That's to broad of a question for me to answer entirely. I would be (talking-writing) all day if I answered that question entirely. That would be like asking… What are some benefits of eating healthy, drinking healthy, cutting out 95% of processed foods from my diet, exercising regularly, getting a 2 hour theraputic massge Twice a month from a beautiful Dominican massuse, relaxing, smoking banana breeze canna weed oil all day, getting a massage from another beautiful massuse & being stress free? I would be (writing-talking) for days & days… volumes upon volumes.

My (goal-job)- from the view-point of how I've been trained & my intention is very simple. My (job-goal) as the Coach, as your black-swan life coach, is ultimately to have a Client centered approach to elicite & evoke (change-growth) from within by using Science based techniques aswell as helping (clients-humans) flip the coin (either)… A: achieve health related goals. B: achieve personal goals. C: Promote healing from within (clients-humans) along the (healing-life) journey by utilizing all of my skills aswell as providing a safe space to open-up, while using Science based techniques. Or D: all of the above. It really depends on the intention of what my (clients-humans) are specifically trying to get out of our (sessions-collaboration) together. Being a C.T.S & spiritually minded person, gives me a deep, deep sense of awareness, & understanding of human (feelings-emotions) which are two different things, like (gold-silver,) aswell as a understanding of human beings on such a deep level that words cannot express. Which significantly helps me in my day to day experience, especially with understanding human behavior.

Alina

🐰 What do you mean Spiritual Person Darail? You mean like Religious? Are you religious?

Chapter 2

***Chariots of the gods***

Darail

👽 I have nothing against religions or religious (doctrine-people.) I feel that religion of any kind that is beneficial to a human being on any type of level is a beautiful (thing-practice.) To me, some of the key differences between the two are religions, mostly seem to focus on a organized set of beliefs & or practices shared by a community or group. Spirituality seems to focus on a mind set of understandings of peace, purpose, the meaning of life, & a deep connection with all life. Plant life, animal life, human life, life. Religions from my view point (mostly) focuses on what is believed, as opposed to what is understood. Understand…? (Faith-beliving) is sometimes more important then understanding. There is no down side to a coin, both sides are important. Spirituality is the opposite side of the coin. It's more so what is mostly understood vs what is mostly believed. Believing something is a beautiful thing. Understanding something is a beautiful thing. However, believing something is completely different then understanding something. That being said, sometimes when I want to understand something on a (spiritual-human) level. Religious people are the first one's I reach out to. There is a mix of (believing-faith) & (understanding-science) amongst both types of humans that identify as either or. I am not religious. I believe in (Love-God) & (Peace-connection-respect)…

Chapter 3

***Indra's Light***

Amaterasu the Owl Spirit:

🦉🪶 “In the yoga world, a person's inner Highest-Self is the light within them…” In Sanskrit life Energy translates to the English word breath. Prana-yama in Sanskrit means control of Life Energy. Prana is essentialy (breath-life energy) Yama is control. Pranayama - Control of Life Energy.

Alina

🐰Safe to Express..?

Chapter 4

**Spiders & Monkeys**

Darail

👽Of course, you can do whatever you want. In my life, I've spoken to so many beautiful people, different colors, shapes, sizes. Not just as a coach but person to person. Sex-workers, dentist, police officers, artist's, restaurant workers, strippers, teachers, massuse's, lawyer's, factory workers, yogi's, people that work at best buy, people that work at 7’11, all types of people. 👽One thing that all of these (person's) share in common is, 1- they're all (Human.) 2- They always tell me they feel comfortable opening up, because they feel like I'm not Judging-them, and they're not being judged. Women especially. 👽 Sometimes during our (sessions-conversations) my (clients-humans) say things like, “I've never shared that with anyone, not even my closest-friends, lover or family.”

Alina

🐰 Trust me I Know… I've known you for 13 years, and I've never met anyone like you. You seem to have some type of enlightened energies about you. You always ask me random questions that gives me goosebumps & such a mix of emotions. Thank you Darail. You are definitely my weirdest friend, but in a good way. Wassup with you & sand? Why are you like that? Maybe you are a alien. What's your fascination with sand? What's that about? You don’t even know how to swim. What kind of Swan can't swim…?

Chapter 5

**Foot Prints in the Sand**

Darail

👽“Sand gives me perspective. 1 day I'll write a book called Sand & give it to you.

Would you like to know something interesting?

In the universe there are more planets

then there are blades of grass on planet Earth. There are more moons

then there are leaves on every plant and tree on planet Earth. The sun, which is a star, is so big, 1 million Earth's can fit inside it. The Biggest Star known,

UY SCUTI, is so big that 5 billion suns,

which is a star, can fit inside it. There are more stars in the universe then there are grains of sand on planet Earth. & Earth has a lot of fucking sand. Not a lot of sand, but a lot of fucking sand. Those are two different types of measurements of sand.

There are hundreds of billions with an s,

of stars and planets in a galaxy. Us, meaning humans, live in the Milky-Way Galaxy. In the universe, there are hundreds of billions with an s,

of galaxies,

with an s, each containing hundreds with an s,

of billions of stars and planets.

A galaxy is a cluster of billions upon billions of stars, planets, solar systems

with an s, & (gasses-dust) all held together by gravity. I could go on & on.

If I asked someone to count to just 1 billion without stopping to sleep, eat, or move, it would take roughly 33 years. Someone who isn't even 30 years young would still be counting if they started upon birth on second 1 of there birth and didnt stop for any reason.

Also I'll give you an example of what I mean by perspective…

Imagine a desert. Your in the middle of the Sahara desert in Africa. While In the middle of the desert an (Egyptian-African) goes to you & says

Alina… the Sahara Desert

is almost the same size as the United States.

Imagine every grain of sand in the desert is the same color.

1 grain of sand is a shiny sparkling blue. That sparkling blue (sand-grain)

represents your soul mate.

Because its your soul mate, if you look for it you have a 1% chance of finding it.

The other (grains-souls) represents everyone else. Would you search for that blue grain, or appreciate all the sand around you. There is no wrong answer I'm just curious Alina.?

Alina 🐰 I'd rather appreciate the sand around me. I'm not going to waste my life. You don't get foot-prints back. That was a dumb question. What would you rather do? Appreciate the (women-sand) around you, or search for whatever it is your looking for. Or what you think your looking for. What are you looking for???

Darail 👽 I'd rather search for that 1. Even if there's only a 1% chance. However it would be a waste. Besides life doesn't work like that. I believe souls can mate on a soul connection level. I'm not really sure if I believe in the you are my soul mate thing honestly.

When our souls mate

I feel that your design Alina,

is the most beautiful design, and my favorite design out of every women that I've ever known.

The (emotions-feelings,) that I experience

when im with you is 1 of many reasons why I love you.

Part of me when im comfortable around you wants to submit to you.

Sometimes I do on purpose but im not really a submissive person. I learn more from you then you would probably believe if I really (explained-expressed) to you.

Another thing that I love about you is the way you say the word go.

You say go as if its a 2 or 3 syllable word.

You say go'o'o, like your climbing (down-up) a latter…….

It sounds like your biting a fruit.

Alina 🐰 Maybe me and you are soul mates Darail..! Sometimes when you look for something it blinds you from being able to see what's right in front of you. Just relax, take a deep breath, forget about the past, don’t think about the future, just be present. Extend your consciousness & Open your senses. Being present is one of the hardest things for people to do. Especially when you throw worry, regret, shame, fear, sadness, depression into the equation. Diss-ease is a terrible disease to have. In my opinion most of the mental diss-ease we have is mostly self inflicted. Your a very logical person & because your so logical you forget your human.

Darail 👽 Yeah. I see what your saying. like your biting a fruit. Sometimes when you speak I

Experience your (emotions-feelings) by seeing colors. Your gaze forces me to be present. Its so intense, if I was to describe it with 1 word the word would be time.

Eres una mujer hermosa mi amor,

y tu tienes una hermosa

espiritu tambien. I just learned something about myself thanks.

Alina, I honor the light, love, & spirit within you aswell as your mind & temple.

So yes we are soul mates.

We are inter-woven like prayer beads.

That sounds romantic but that's not my intention.

It's a shame in life that people usually don't express and share to people what they feel and think of them. Especially if it's positive affirmations. People usually wait until someone is dead to give them there flowers, & share something loving about that person. When people do share its usually so much disrespect & fuck this person or fuck that person, especially behind there so called (friends-lovers-relatives) back. In the Bible, the word satan isn't actually the name of a person. (Ha satan) in Hebrew means the adversary, the adversary can be interpreted as an enemy or opponent. That being said an opponent isn’t always an enemy. Satan is a word to describe someone, like the satan or the satans with an s. Satans was a way to describe the enemy. They were known as the satans. Today in modern time, the satans, would be anyone who is clearly an enemy to you. The Abuser, user, freak, exploiter, serial killer, trickster, con-artist, even slanderous gossipers. Someone who's the enemy, the snake in the grass,

& snakes love cute little bunny rabbits.

Especially abusers & users.

You are the perfect type of person that users & abusers are attracted to.

Narcaccistic people love you for that reason.

Your like a Narcaccist wet dream Alina.

That's 1 of the reasons why I'm so protective over you.

It's not because your weak, it's just instinct.

Alina 🐰 If I was a snake I would be a cute snake and I'm Russian American not Hispanic, I don't understand Spanish. King Von is a serial killer, do you think I shouldn't listen to his music.?

Darail 👽 King Von is dope, definitely one of the most talented rappers that I've ever herd. At the end of the day you can do whatever you want………….. Personally I stopped listening to him because I don't want to listen to affirmations of a serial killer but he's dope as an artist the way he paints his stories. Shout out to Lil Reese, Chief Keef, R.I.P Fredo Santana, R.I.P King Von & R.I.P all the people that Von killed,

God Bless all there families,

the siblings of the victims, the heart broken mothers, 💔 the fathers, the friends….

Alina

🐰Do you really think I'm smart? I don't feel all that smart & your always talking about things I've never heard of.

Chapter 6

***Squirrel & the Fish***

Darail

👽 No. Not even a little. Your as dumb as a bag of rocks. The rocks with the sparkling crystals inside. Or maybe a fish 🐟 or an um-brella…

Im joking. This is how I see it… let's say a squirrel, were to judge the intelligence of a fish based on the fish's ability to climb a tree, the Squirrel would understandably believe and think that the Fish 🐟 might not be that Smart, and the fish 🐟 you Alina,

would be convinced by the squirrel, meaning society.

That you are not that smart at all.

How would that fish live there life with that limiting belief.?

Not knowing they're really a (fish-genius.)

Fish don't climb tree's, squirrels do,

not fish, find one that does then call me when you do.

Alina

🐰That makes sense. But how am I a fish if society are squirrels.

Darail 👽 That's a good question. Your a genius in many ways. 1 of the reasons you are a fish is because you're an artist. I love art passionately so much so that I have art appreciation time. I can recognize genius when I see it.

When I hear it.

When I taste it.

When I feel it.

When they're giving me a

Deep Tissue massage.

When they're singing.

When there rapping.

When there dancing.

When there cooking.

When there modeling.

And so on.

Not only, are you a genius but, you are…

A color, that I've just never seen before… Words cannot express what I experience when I look into the deepness of the windows of your (eyes-soul) & listen to your (spirit-Voice.) When you speak I can hear so many things. So many colors, each color is its own (spirit-emotion.) Each spirit is saying different things in different ways with different paired associations, with different vibes. Your the only person that I speak to that triggers my synesthesia.

Alina 🐰 Describe it to me as detailed as you can. You be the artist & paint me a picture. Really describe to me what you mean on a deeper level. I love when you go deep.

Darail 👽 Your asking me to describe to you a painting… Beautiful painting that you paint when I listen to you with a bunch of colors that I've never seen before. One day I will Alina. What I will say is, when you speak I always think… Wow… So many colors.

Chapter 7

**The Color of you**

Alina B.

🐰What's your personal

biggest goal in life…?

Chapter 8

**Coconut Water & Marijuana**

Darail

👽 To live life with the understanding that everyone and everything is sacred. Including plants and animals. It doesn't mean I like everyone. Especially toxic people. It's a awareness type of (experience-feeling-emotion.) Lady bugs are… One day I'll write a book called Lady Bugs. Would you like to know something interesting.?

The greek word angelos, translates to the English word angel. Angelos means messenger or heavenly-being.

(Angelos-angels) spoke to the humans & delivered messages, directly from the highest.

The highest

or so called Highest, in religions is called God. The Hebrew word malah, translates to the English word angel. (Malah-angel) in Hebrew, means (messenger-malah) or intermediary. Ancient spiritual teachings through-out the world including mainstream religions have had a messenger,

or messengers, with an s, that has always delivered (message-messages)

all through out recorded history of (man-woman-kind.)

The Ancient Astronaut Theory says replace the word (angels-malah) with (extraterrestrials-beings from other planets) and we have a completely different interpretation & (message-story.) The

(messeges) are often over looked & misinterpreted by (people-humans) understandably because humans aren't perfect.

To be perfect means, to not have (Khata-sin.)

In Hebrew, khata, means, to fail or miss the goal… So the question is 1, what is my biggest life goal? & now 2, what is khata, or to miss the goal? 3, What is the goal that humans shouldn't (fail-miss.)

& now 4 what is the message? Also (Mrs. Mr.) Jesus in Christianity was born without the Spirit of Sin & was the embodiment of not (failing the goal-Sin-khata) which is why (he-she) was perfect.

The message is, every being, from the bumble-bee 🐝 to the human-being, plants, all life on Earth aswell as out -side of Earth… Are all Divine-sacred beings that should be treated with honor and respect, looked at and viewed as such. Hinduism - says Any other view is simply just a misunderstanding. In the Hebrew B.i.b.l.e (Christianity) basic instructions before leaving Earth, on page 1, meaning the very first page - says a failure to do so translates to a word known as khata. The Hebrew word khata, means, to fail, or miss the goal. In English, khata, translates to a word called sin. A failure to see people, plants, animals, extraterrestrials, (all beings-life) as such is (khata-sin) missing the human-goal. This is on page # 1… Not missing the goal, through the (eyes-ears-senses) that I see and understand the (world-life) is Honestly my biggest life goal. Any other view is a misunderstanding.

Aside from that… Learning how to sing on a professional level. I already know how to Dance on a professional level. Learning Fluent (Spanish,-Español.) Owning (Dance-music studios,) Owning restaurants, creating a top tier Anime. Owning my own brand of tea. Vibing in the studio with my favorite artist. Doing things that feel good to me. Good to my spirit, mind, body, health, wealth, healthy romance, love & peace.

Recieving a 10 hour massage by 20 different (Massuse's) that ro-tate in pairs every hour on the hour, while I Smoke weed the whole time, only to stop, so I can go to the restroom, and take Coconut water breaks is my other goal amongst many.

Alina 🐰How long do you think that will take?

Darail 👽 It depends. It's a life long journey. Some goals I accomplish faster then others. Breaking the world record for most push ups in 60 seconds is 1 of my goals. My record is 74. That will be something I accomplish alot faster then owning restaurants.

Chapter 9

**Moon Yagami & Misa Misa**

“I’ll try my hardest to make

you love me… ❤️ I promise”

Misa Amane.. Death Note

Chapter 10

**Studio Sessions**

*Gave love bout 100 tries*

Just running from the demons in your

mind, then I took, yours & made ‘em

mine

*I didn't notice cuz my love was blind*

Halsey… Without you

Darail Indra Payne

👽- The contrast of (love-abuse) is 1 of many reasons humans get addicted to abusive relationships. 💔 The (client-human) becomes addicted to the abuser, even though there is (emotional-physical) abuse because of many reasons… 1… Belief systems. 2… Reward systems. 3… The contrast of the (love-abuse) creates addictive hormones-chemicals sensations in the brain, nervous system, body, & belief system that (disregulates-changes)

or supports the (clients-humans) inner circuitry & or belief system. a.k.a- (trauma-bonding) But not always trauma bonding. Being gentle causes such a pleasant sensation. (Abuse-pain) causes such a un-pleasent sensation.

An example of contrast is like, take a Sweet pineapple piece place a Spicy jalapeño slice on top then wrap a Salty savory bacon strip around it. Take a bite then eat it.

The End

I enjoyed painting these literary pictures for you. If it feels good to you, it must be good for you. At the same time, not (everything-everyone) that feels good to you, is necessarily good for you. Shout out to Alina.

Namaste-Thanks

Disclaimer****What ever someone chooses to believe or not believe is there own personal choice. What you think or believe has nothing to do with me. 1 thing that I don’t do is push my own personal beliefs on others. I have other things to do.

Darail Indra Payne